Monday, October 17th, 2005
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Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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4:16 pm
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MY EYEBALLS ARE RLY RLY ITCHY I THINK I AM GOING BLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIND :O
awesome!! :D
current music: ben folds
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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10:37 pm
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hahahahahahahahahahahseh;osdkhd;hh'kqq',g q
got high tonight for the first time since. january?
daaamn. good times :D
current music: iron and wine
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Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
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11:45 am
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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
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10:49 pm - umm
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is it possible to become a lesbian due to traumatic experiences with guys? because like... i've suddenly lost interest in any guy that i've ever been attracted to and i'm finding myself licking my lips everytime i see a hot female camwhore on lj or myspace.
if you guys didn't know (which you should if you read this waste of internet!!!!) the guy i loved and gave my v-card to died in a really tragic car accident that despite what anyone tells me i'm convinced i played a part in.
then i started dating his brother and he manipulated me into trying drugs again and having sex with him
so yeah... let me know what you think :/
current mood:  contemplative
current music: rilo kiley
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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
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11:33 am
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 | You scored as Mushrooms. Shrooms! You're still goin for one of the most natural drugs. You'd like to visit a whole other world, and see things you've never seen before. Fucking trippy.
Mushrooms | | 81% | Alcohol | | 69% | Cocaine | | 69% | Inhalents | | 63% | Marijuana | | 50% | Ecstacy | | 44% | None! | | 38% | </td>
What's your ideal drug?
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the internet says that it's okay i killed my boyfriend.
current mood:  depressed
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Thursday, January 13th, 2005
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12:47 pm
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fuuuuuuck.
i managed to fuck up a whole year of willpower in one fucking night.
one fucking night.
and i fucking hate ricky now. it's his fault.
on saturday we were going to just hang out and chill and i haven't been smoking a lot of pot lately... the last time i smoked was on new years eve and it wasn't that much then. and i've been trying to stop completely. because i really WANT to have a better life. but unfortunately i was dating the worse guy ever for that goal who doesnt have any direction in life, just wants to sit on his ass and sell crack. but anyways, so on saturday i went over to his house and we were all making out and whatever when his cellphone rings so he answers it. and it's this guy named frankie and he's tells ricky that there's a party going on at some girl's house, i don't know who. so ricky wants to go and i'm like "no i don't want to, it's going to be all drugs and stuff." but he was just like "chill gabs, there's only going to be beer and i won't drink." psh YEAH RIGHT.
but anyways, we go to this party, and it's all college people and i only know ricky and a few of his friends so right away i feel really out of place. but he looks like he's having fun so i don't say anything. then he gets a beer and starts drinking it and i'm all "wtf ricky i thought you weren't going to drink!!" but he's just like "oh, chill, gabbi." he says that all the fucking time. and eventually he convinces me to drink too because then i'll have more fun. and like the next thing i know i've had like four beers and i'm so drunk and i'm making out with one of ricky's friends and he's just laughing... i didn't even know what i was doing. and somewhere in the middle of all that i managed to drop some fucking x and everything is really blurry after that, but i think i shot up heroin too coz there's a little prick in my arm... and i've never donethat shit before.
but yeah i was really fucked up... and ricky is drunk too, and he KNOWS i'm against all of this stuff, but he's still like "oh gabbi aren't you having fun?" and then we go down in the basement and it's just all kids making out, and we go in the laundrey room and i'm so fucked up, i have no idea what i'm doing. i'm just like watching it all out of body or something and i'm not doing anything to stop it. and then he takes off my clothes and starts eating me out and yeah, i've never been that far before, and i don't even remember how it felt but yeah. then he's like "gabbi i really love you." and i probably said "i love you too ricky." and then we started kissing and then we're naked and the next thing i know we're having sex........
i feel like such shit. i PROMISED simon that i wouldn't do this shit anymore after he died, that i was going to stay true to him forever, and the next thing i know i'm fucking his brother.
ugh. i fucking hate ricky. and i fucking hate myself. i suck :(
current music: yellowcard
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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12:43 am
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Monday, January 3rd, 2005
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1:00 am
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i feel like i havent updated in forever!! jeesus it's 2005 already... weird, huh? i was just getting used to 2004. i miss the year 2003 everything was so cool then :/ 1997 was pretty good too haha; but yeah anyways. i know you all want to hear about my new years eve!! :D
i'll tell you about it in poem form :D
i spent it with ricky
i got a hicky
it was spiffy
seemed like it happened in a jiffy
but that's okay
it beats any other day
we smoked 18 bowls
now my brain is a hole
but i don't care
because pot is... good :D
good in the hood
like nobody should
unf unf
lol i am a fantastic poet.
current mood:  cold
current music: le tigre
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Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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12:57 am
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Thursday, December 16th, 2004
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7:45 am - Ricky :D
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
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11:51 pm
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Saturday, December 11th, 2004
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9:35 pm
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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5:02 pm
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i skipped school today and went to the movies with ricky. we saw the polar express. it was good. actually i don't really rmember because we made out throughout almost the enitre tihng. i do rmemeber that dude singing about HOT CHOC-O-LATE though. that was weird. but yeah.
it was cool because there was no one in the theatre except for this seven year old and his mom. one time he turned around and looked at us and went "eww!! mommy, those boys are kissing!!" lol. short hair :/
nice to know that the next generation will be a bunch of raging homophobes though.
after that we got pizza and drove around for a while. he asked if i wanted to shroom but i told him 'no'. he didn't get mad though. it was cool. i'm surprised that he wanted to though after what happened with simon. you'd think he'd be the first one to take that stuff more seriously.
You Are From Neptune |
You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability.
You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea.
Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion.
You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone.
If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.
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current mood:  okay
current music: the beat alls ;)
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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4:30 pm
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ugg greece was soosososos borinnng. i hate greek food. i hate my grandparents. it was so dumb. but at least i didn't have to go to school all last week OR today! but i didn't go today because i was sick, i guess. idk i just have like a really runny nose and a bad cough. i hope i didnt get it from like greek anthrax or something. that would be bad.
ricky made me a mix cd though as a get well soon gift :) idk whats on it, i haven't listened to it yet, but still that's really sweet. hehe<3
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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3:20 pm
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ugg greece is so fucking dumb. we’re not even like doing anything interesting, we’re just sitting here in my nonny and boppy’s house coz it’s all raining outside. i want some pot.
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Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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1:12 pm - Goldfish
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Humans,
like others,
have out grown
their primitiveness.
However one cannot
help but ask
What wonder sprouted
out thumbs?
What creased a tiny hole
in our Stomach?
Eyes planted on
the front of
our face, for
preying, to
kill easier. I
watched the
Goldfish
swimming dully,
with lack of interest,
lack of
luster against (murky-perhaps)
Clean Water, lips suck
sucking like little
girlboy kisses, sucking
with lack of
desperation at air’s poison.
I couldn’t
help but
Wonder; the flashing
orange, the milky white,
the metallic yellows–
–Why? What moved God
to paint such defenseless
creatures so extravagantly
so that my preying eyes
could spot them so
easily? So that a
Chinese man named
Mr. Koi could dip his big
nets into the sea and
scoop them out, away
from home, from their
air poison, from their
clean murk. So that
Bigger fish could
(in the way we which we sew many metaphors for)
easily gobble them
as simply as they breath?
Did fish once breath in
fire? Did they dance against
wicked hot orangeyellowwhite flames? Did
they once breath
Life’s poison–the poison none
has ever been able to tame
without destroying? Or were they
once not fish, but birds flying against the
silhouette of Heaven – glowing, golden Sun
– Until God said “No more!” and perhaps
wept with sinister pity,
casting them down onto the
horrible Earth, where they could be reduced to
nothing but
Mere flashes of gold
in the Koi Pond
where predators could
watch and
selfishly contemplate
what they are still too primitive
to comprehend.
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Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
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8:31 pm - NEW HAIR!!
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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
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4:35 pm
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GRRR ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) stephzilla IS THE BIGGEST BITCH EVERRR
okay everyone hate her
she's such a goddamn bitch
she keeps like telling me i'm a transvestite and stuff... god who goes around saying that shit to people on the internet? grr what a bitch.
okay anywayys today ricky gave me a ride home from school today... i was really pleasently surprised to see him there because if he wasn't i would of probably had to walk home bc amelia didn't have her car today for some reason. we actually went to rally burger and got some really good fries and then smoked out in the parking lot. we got really stoned and then we started making out :x fdlgjdroigr yeah i know but i don't regret it. it was so fucking amazing. he fingered me!! hahahahahahahahahahahadlgjdlrkgrdlkd; i'm a dork.
so i guess we're more than friends... i don't know if i should be letting simon go though... i still love him :X i don't knowwww i just haven't been fingered for like forever okay it was nice for once.
"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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hmm...
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Monday, November 15th, 2004
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2:12 pm
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Your crazy but, fun to hang out with:) Sometimes
you go nuts over a question(lol) Also you don't
care what you look like. As long as your fun
and have lots of friends:) Your one of a kind:)
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haha; i think that's pretty true. oh the joy of online quizzes!
this weekend was boring. i didn't do anything. i got my period today omg i hate it i have cramps soooo bad ugg i hate being a woman. oh haha today in history frank farted; frank is this really fat kid who everyone hates. and he farted and it was really funny then we threw stuff at him<33
current music: Le Tigre!!!!
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